Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Separation anxiety and finding spare time.

Xander and Ezekiel are almost 10 months old and are right on point with all notable milestones, including separation anxiety. I can't go to the bathroom or get a glass of water without Ezekiel wailing like it's the end of the world. Xander is still pretty chill but I can see it starting to set in. I have moments when I love it and am happy to be so needed, I have moments when I feel like I am drowning, and then all the feelings in between.

I am using some alone time on the computer for the first time in weeks. Usually I use my free hour each week going to a hooping class, which has been amazing, but it is currently on break. So I am in my bedroom while my husband watches the babies, they aren't crying. It is so very fabulous.

It is so important to keep remembering to just ask for time to myself. Just 20 minutes alone regenerates me into a reasonable loving person again. When I was pregnant I thought I would have no problem asking for some alone time. But after you get to know your babies and you realize you have all the tricks and rhythms down pat and you are just too exhausted to reiterate them to anyone else, it can be difficult to trust or believe anyone can do what you do all day for even an hour. Especially when you are unsure if you will attempt to have anymore and you are trying to enjoy every minute of them being little.

It is also important to make your "cleaning time" and your "alone time" separate. otherwise you will burn yourself out and be of no use to anybody.

With that said I am going to lay down and space out for 10 more minutes before getting the kids ready for bed.

Good Night :-)

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